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We’re all living in completely different worlds. From an academic standpoint, this used to fascinate me. But from a “watch and wait” standpoint, being a private citizen living in 2020, with Covid and Trump and Proud Boys and misinformation amidst rising racial tensions…. this scares the living shit out of me. I studied theater inContinue reading “Different Worlds”

I’m… so close to giving up on humanity. Like, I’m the kind of person who loves wordplay and references and intellectualism…. I’ve never seen it as snobby. I see it as nerdy. But I’m watching more and more people embrace ignorance as a point of pride. And that makes me sad. Like, in commenting onContinue reading “Sigh.”

Sigh. I’m not going to lie. We’re in a really crappy place, America.While most of my community (performing artists) is starting to pick up the pieces from a harrowing four years (I’ll address this in an upcoming blog), I’m watching a much larger cross section of America scrambling to understand how their savior could possiblyContinue reading “Decolonizing America through Theater and the Arts”

I’ve been feeling pretty down on myself lately. Maybe I’ve been feeling down on the world. I definitely hold myself to unreasonable standards and, unfortunately, try to uphold everyone else to those same unreasonable standards as well. This makes for a fairly tense existence. Thankfully, I also teach children who continually give me hope andContinue reading “What an embarrassing time to be alive….”

There are a thousand reasons I shouldn’t care.But a million why I do.Just ask me and I’ll maybe shareOne, Two, Three or a few.

I’ve been reading lots of concerning literature and articles and opinions about what’s happening right now.I’ve been seeing upsetting screen shots and updates and statuses. I deeply wish to heal the divide of this country, and yet I can barely imagine healing the divide of my workplace, so I just continually hope for God toContinue reading “I hope the world heals”

I’ve always been oddly esoteric.From repeating my dad’s antiquated phrases to a group of prepubescent judgmental gymnasts to turning around to study Chaucer and become VP of the Medieval Club in college, I’ve struggled to relate to my peers on a legitimate level, every step along the way. Please understand, claiming to feel “esoteric” absolutelyContinue reading “I haven’t the foggiest.”

January 20th can’t come soon enough! Anyone who knows me knows how I’ve felt about the last four years. I didn’t exactly hide my disdain for this administration. I respected other people’s opinions and beliefs and desires. But maybe I shouldn’t have. Maybe I should have challenged and discoursed more. Maybe I should have doneContinue reading “For the love of everything”

Ahimsa. Non Harming. It is SUCH a difficult concept to follow.Not in theory. The theory is easy. But there are so many “damned if you do and damned if you don’t” moments in life that, what’s going to “not harm” one person will just as readily harm the next. You work to “not harm” oneContinue reading “What am I doing.”

Life. Is. Hard. That’s the end all and be all.  Life is hard. In the last month, I’ve lost a friend I’d had since the age of 3 AND a friend I made in high school.  I also lost an older friend (someone with whom I had daily interactions) and yet someone else who was close toContinue reading “Recent Tragedies”

Everything in life is how we look at it. I remember reading some statistic that life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it.  I think this is a definite truism. And it is our earliest experiences that will always have the strongest pulls on our beliefs, expectations and reactions.Continue reading “Failures and Success “

So life is a constant battle. Buddhism has always resonated with me from an early understanding that with attachment – ownership, entitlement, claim, love, desire – comes the risk of the loss of that object.  To avoid suffering, avoid desire. But the practicality of that reality in this day, age and society is…. Well, it’sContinue reading “Dealing with loss “

I’m not a wilting wallflower. I’ve never been as such and I never will be. After this weekend, hearing both inspiring words and disparaging ones, I know I’m determined to proceed in a specific direction. I love teaching. I love the fact that I have an intimate understanding in a number of disciplines. Years agoContinue reading “Determined.”

My fiancee is of the supreme belief that “I need to have SOMETHING to worry about.” Trust me, I fretted over the use of the “F-word” in that last blog.  For a girl who worked a stint at a Catholic Elementary/Middle School, volunteers by teaching dance at a Lutheran Church and generally lives a G-ratedContinue reading “By the way…”